Now I Know, I Am Me

Who am I? Yeah, I’m asking myself, who am I? It’s weird, right? Asking myself who am I is weird. I control myself, but why ask myself who am I? Maybe I’m confused. Maybe I don’t trust myself anymore. I don’t trust my decisions, my choices, my instincts. Or just maybe I’m too busy with things that I don’t have time to talk to myself about my decisions and my choices.

Sometimes, people say “Jem, you’re so sweet… kind… nice… such a gentleman” but sometimes “Jem, you’re a jerk… mean…rude.” Sometimes I think of myself as a gentleman, but also sometimes I think of myself as the opposite. When I talk to someone I’m not that close or not really close, why do I act like a gentleman or a nice guy? Did I just act it or that’s just who I really am? But why if I’m with my closest friends I act wild? Who am I?

I was in love with a girl, got broken, still in love with her, then fell in love with another girl, in love with both, then chose the first. I said and did sweet things, the things I really meant, to the one I didn’t choose, yet, still didn’t choose her. I left her but I didn’t lie to her. I really loved her but I said things that were broken, I didn’t keep my words. That was why I don’t trust myself anymore with my promises. I don’t know or I’m not sure if I will keep or break my promises unlike before, I was always sure to keep and do my promises.

Until now, it bothers me. Not just leaving her that bothers me, but also all the broken promises I made and decisions that hurt people. Do I still control myself, or my feelings are taking over? Then, at last, I had the time for myself. I had my realizations, leanings and lessons. After that time, I felt lighter. I felt that I really know who I am. I now have the feeling that I got the control back.

Realizations and lessons were made after that time, the time for myself. Now I know who I am and I can change if it’s wrong and be better if it’s right. I now have the control. I am just a simple boy who likes to do things in his own way. I have no problem with people that judge the way I do things in my life. That’s because I don’t control how and what they think. I don’t worry about the things I can’t control; I worry about the things I can, which are myself and my attitude. I will not let the negative things people think about me affect me. My attitude is not based on how you treat me. It is based on how I use it regardless of how you treat me… unless necessary. I am ME. ^_^

Having the Ability to Choose....

“To Be or Not To Be” -Hamlet

Hamlet questions the meaning of life, and whether or not it is worthwhile to stay alive when life contains so many hardships. He comes to the conclusion that the main reason people stay alive is due to a fear of death and uncertainty at what lies beyond life.

In simple, it’s a choice. It simply means yes or no, continue or stop, live or die, I will or I won’t, I do or I don’t, I choose to or I choose not to, now or never. In life there are so many questions that have choices to make, like “will I ask her out?”, “will I study or review for the test?”, “will I make my project now?”, “will I try these drugs?” and so many more to mention.

  

 

Think Before You Act!

There are times in our life that just suddenly… we need to choose, that sometimes the speed of the moment also affects the speed of our decision, our choice; that’s where the phrase Think Before You Act will come in. A choice is not just chosen because you just feel good about it or you just like the fun of it. You need to think about it, weigh the consequences, imagine the future or results of it, who will have the advantage and the disadvantage, who will get hurt, is it for myself or for others, what is the right thing to do, etc. Choice will also show who you are, your attitude, your personality, your mindset, your goals; therefore definitely good choice, good attitude, good personality, good mindset, good goals.

In my life, there were choices I made that I regret and there were some that I didn’t. One of the choices I regret was when I was in Grade 6 when I chose to focus myself, my time, in extra-curricular and be confident in my academic performance. I ended up ranking second of the class from my consistently ranking first; but, in every wrong choice, there’s learning, moral, lesson. I changed and balanced my extra-curricular with my academic performance and until now, though I do not rank first in my section, I am doing my best, the best that I can, I know and until to what extent of my ability.

 

The ability to choose is God’s gift to us, humans. Animals don’t have that, also plants and of course also the non-living. It is God’s gift so be thankful; being thankful is not being wasteful; and not being wasteful is using the gift right, so make the right choice. ^_^

The Greatest 4pm Class of III-N

Spelling pretests on Mondays,

look at our scores, we got low.

Post tests on Wednesdays,

look at our scores, we’re not foe

Verbals, we had at first.

Gerunds, Participles, and Infinitives,

Verbs which were cursed

to be Nouns, Adverbs, or Adjectives.

Then, Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet we had.

Grouped in four different settings,

All results were not bad,

but “not bad” means better happenings!

Third is thy Tenses

Past, Present, Future they are,

in simple, perfect, progressive and perfect progressive tenses.

We’d already discussed until there so far.

Of course, don’t forget thy teacher,

who teaches the best in every way.

Mildred Climacosa-Atendido and is a “her”.

And always a good teacher in everyday.

Les Collage~! =P

Well, this is my collage. It looks kinda boring but... it is still a collage, that's all I can say. By the way, the pictures in this collage are place accordingly to give meaning. It has no complex meanings, just simple and few. First, are the pictures of the men working, carrying burden, the hardworking, etc., they are shown there to show the men's appearance or state without computers or any computer technology; their difficulty is shown also from the looks of each of them. Second, are the computers, they are operating beautifully, cheerfully, in order etc. and also two of the computers are the carrying the men's burden or work. It means that computers or computer technology can do work that men can and also can help men in their work. And the third one is the smiley that says GOOD JOB! The meaning there is a little obvious; it means that all of those in whole is a good job. It means that the help that computers or computer technology give is a good job and a successful one. ^_^ and all I can say is "Keep Up the Good Work!" ^_^